Hi, I'm Erin Reiland and wanted to tell you about myself!
I suffered in my eating disorder from 15-35 years old. It was a life of in and out of treatment and I thought I would NEVER recover. My childhood trauma, anxiety, depression and low self-worth kept me feeling stuck and I did not know how to live.
When I recovered I knew that my purpose was to help support other women going through the same type of things I had. I became a Certified Disordered Eating, Anxiety & Trauma Coach to help others know that they are not alone when struggling or in recovery from the disorder and issues surrounding it. I then went on to become Certified in 'PAUSE' Breathwork Practitioner Program and as Certified NLP Practitioner. I use ALL of these modalities to support and create lasting change and healing.
Most of my life I felt unworthy and scared to be anything else other than my eating disorder. It had become my identity and my anxiety dictated so much of how I lived each day. My eating disorder felt "safe" and that it was the only thing I had. It was my best friend and worst enemy. I hated my body and no matter how thin I would get it did not matter. I would find something wrong with myself. The scale became my judge of what I was worth. I looked at myself and hated what I saw in the mirror.
What I realized though, was that no matter what I did to try and change my body, it was the feelings underneath that needed the love that I wasn't giving myself. My past trauma as a child and other experiences were deeply rooted in who I "thought" I was and always would be. I lost so many years of my life to the disorder.
It finally hit me that I would die if I did not begin to actually feel and want my life to be different. I began to see how sick I truly had gotten. I went in for my last residential treatment and was there for 3 months. I chose to go. I was sick of being sick. Even with my eating disorder screaming in my head of all of the reasons why I NEEDED "her" in my life-I worked hard to quiet that voice through finally releasing my control over to the doctors and people helping me in my recovery.
It was terrifying, but I FINALLY decided to try. I looked at all I had in my life, even at the lowest part of it. I have a son who was beginning to understand that "mom is sick" and he was scared I was going to die.
I am recovered, accepting and loving myself for WHO I am, and enjoying the life I had always wanted.
I am able and grateful that I let myself feel the anxiety and other emotions I had held inside of me, and know it was there for a reason. Our bodies know more than our minds do!!! I am now able to feel into that and continue to grow personally.
Using Breathwork to begin to feel into my body and those places where fear, sadness and confusion reside. To release that stuck energy and begin to release what no longer was serving me.
I am in a place to be able to support and help others find joy, inner peace and a purpose in life. To begin to realize, that YOU are so much more than an eating disorder or your past. I get all the fears, and feelings like, "where the heck do I even begin?" that may come up for you.
I am here to go along WITH you in this. You are not alone. You can finally be free and see life is truly amazing. You deserve more and are inherently worthy of freedom. Just allow yourself that chance by dropping me a line and we can chat.
CERTIFICATIONS & MORE:
* Featured in ABC, CBS, FOX, NBC and CW media outlets
* Featured in eating disorder interviews and videos, blog contributor, author and podcast guest spots
* Certified Disordered Eating/Anxiety and Trauma Coach (through Hungry For Happiness Academy www.hungryforhappiness.com )
* Certified PAUSE Breathwork Practitioner www.pausebreathwork.com
* Certified NLP Practitioner and EFT Coach
* Certification in Eating Disorder Recovery Coach, Mindfulness Coaching, DBT Therapy, CBT Therapy
* Volunteer for NEDA (National Eating Disorders Association) https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
* Ambassador for PROJECT HEAL, the Nations largest nonprofit delivering grants that support people with eating disorders that cannot afford it www.projectheal.com
Who I Am NOW!!!!